25 January 19: Eight of Swords reversed & Three of Swords & Four of Coins reversed

Do you want to talk about it? You probably should, rather than carry all that around inside.

The most unwelcome 3 of Swords (Libra/Gemini/Aquarius) is a violent and painful card, no doubt about it. Three sharp swords stab through a bleeding heart in a stormy sky. The only redeeming thing that can be said about this unfortunate draw is that this is sometimes called ‘The Artists’ Card’, 3 being the powerful number of creation and the often tense and angst ridden process of. A bloody birth, so to speak. But no matter how you spin it, it’s never a welcome card. Emotions are raw and wounds are fresh, and we’re walking around in a great deal of psychic pain. This is depression with a capital D.

In the past where she belongs is the 8 of Swords reversed, or the card of self-limitation and ‘prison’. Mental jail. Those makeshift jail bars of sharp swords she’s surrounded herself with make it rather difficult to get to her, and that’s what this is about today. Reversed, those ‘bars’ are falling away, and it seems safe to approach. This is good. But having just come out of painful situation or state, we’re finding our ‘land legs’, sort of.

In the future position is the careful, guarded and rather miserly 4 of Coins (Virgo/Capricorn/Taurus). This card shows a human holding on to his stash of 4 gold coins for dear life. We’re not just talking about money here, but a mindset. Perhaps they’ve realized that living in a default state of worry and material insecurity was what was holding them back in the past. No risk, no gain. On every level.

I sometimes call this ‘holding your cards close to your chest’ in that this human does not easily open up to other people, but reversed, this may be about to change. It has to. Look at that gory red heart! Look at those black clouds hanging over it! Yet there is a soft, yellow glow emanating from the heart, like a sunrise. The heart heals itself, and has already begun.

What will this process look like? Who can you talk to? This card reversed can mean overspending or, as it’s called, ‘retail therapy’. Horrible term.

This can mean a period of grief that may – like the faint glow around the heart that I swear looks brighter the longer you stare at it (Morgan-Greer) – be coming to an end, and you’re finally able to talk about it.

Better yet, write about it,  paint about it, or sing about it.

 

 

19 January 19: Two of Cups & The Moon & Judgement, reversed

The Bad Influence. Whether you like it or not, the Super Wolf Moon is upon us, and it’s strange how the dog and coyote who howl at the moon on the mysterious card  look a little wolf-ish today. They’re not, they just look like wolves in this light. Or rather, perhaps, they’ve been wolves all along masquerading as a dog and coyote. Who can tell?

In the past position we once again have the 2 of Cups (Pisces/Cancer/Scorpio) that is someone on your mind with whom you shared a deep connection, but was it really, or was it just the wine, the music and the mood lighting? Do you even care? It was a magic moment.

The Moon is more than just ‘present’,  she’s full in the attention-loving fire sign Leo, the Lion, just to add to the wolf and coyote mix. We’re behaving like animals! What’s gotten into you? I think I like it! Full moon madness, it’s heady stuff. This is one crazy super moon with an eclipse on the side. Dreams, visions, psychic impressions, all can be so strong they’re scary. This is the card of film, theatre, and other beautiful illusions,  particularly potent for those who value these vibes: creative types should be having a hell of a weekend.

In the future position we have Judgement, reversed, #20 of the Major Arcana, 20=2. We  may be looking at someone from the past through foggy lenses, and may even have a tendency to over romanticize in general, our fantasies and visions of relationships having been formed by movies and films and Hallmark greeting cards. How dramatic the couple of the 2 of Cups are, staring deep into each other’s eyes, it’s a beautiful close up. The background fades away and its as if they’re the only ones in the room, with eyes and ears for no one else. The reality to be considered, if it even has to be, is whether this can hold up in the light of day – this may not be what they’d call a ‘conventional relationship’. These are not ‘conventional’ people.

Judgement reversed; who cares what people think about you, your work, or your relationships? The moon, she’s talking to you, and not everybody is listening.

Are we crazy?

Don’t judge..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

18 January 19: King of Cups & Three of Wands & The Fool

 Take the chance. You’ll be glad you did, I think. Why not? Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Besides, it looks like a fun trip may be involved, and you can take the dog. The King of Cups will be very happy to see you again, although he may not come out and say so. He’s rather reserved about such things, being the King and all, but after a couple beers he may start to gush a bit: “I missed you, maaaaan!” 

In the past position today is this psychic, artistic, musical King of Water. We can roll him in fur and call him a teddy bear, this tender-hearted, compassionate King representing the astrological signs of Scorpio,Pisces and Cancer. The imagery on the card is that of a King calmly and serenely seated on a throne that seems to be floating on choppy, rippling  waters yet the King holds his gold cup easily without spilling a drop. It’s like when you’re in turbulence on a plane and hold your plastic cup of wine up to stabilize it so it doesn’t spill. Cups represent emotions and the subconscious in the Tarot, and this King is always well in control of his – and possibly yours. A word from this wise King and everything was always ok. again. He may be any important person from your past who may or may not have come straight out and said so, but had deep feelings for you. Who knew? He was always there, always listened, and, being a King, always seemed to know what to say and when to say it as if he was reading your mind. He was. Dad, husband, boss, lover, friend, mentor, counselor, whoever, they were your go-to who always understood you. This person feels very deeply, almost empathically.  You loved this human very much, and he/she you. This is the King most in touch with his feminine side, which gives him so much of his intuition and innate understanding.

The central issue here is making a move in order to get to the next level. A human looks off into the distance and into the future, contemplating and calculating time and effort and any possible obstacles to an endeavor that involves, or will involve, a potential partner or partners. This is the powerful 3 of Fire (Leo/Sagittarius/Aries) so we must be careful who we choose to partner up with for the long haul – the human on this card is passionate and driven, waiting for the word to make a move – the King may require your presence.

The Fool in the future position is the ultimate outsider, numbered Zero, he’s in a class by himself as he strides and skips through this adventure called Life. His eyes look up and ahead, and in this layout, he is right behind the far-sighted human on the 3 as if to say, I’m right behind you. It looks like he or she has thrown together a few things wrapped in a scarf and with only that, a staff, a white rose symbolizing faith and trust in life and a   nervous little dog yapping along at his side, the Fool is a very fated and powerful card, and in this position suggests to me that you have nothing to lose by taking a chance. This person from your past you may be afraid won’t be experienced or reliable enough for a long-term commitment, but he is a King, and moves about in the world with all kinds of people and is very well-respected, even loved, which we can’t say for all the Kings.

You’d kind of be a Fool not to, is what I’m getting here. In this case, the future is the past, as in starting all over from nothing in a good way, as in being free to do what you want, when you want, where you want, and with whom. The Fool must not be so foolish as to even stop along the way to say hello to anyone who does not have his or her best interests in mind or heart. This King always did, because he innately knows what your best interests are because he innately knows what makes people happy.

This could be a journey to visit someone dear from the past you may have not seen in a very long time, possibly at a distance or overseas, and possibly for some kind of collaboration. Why not?

“Where are you going? Who’s going to feed me?” yaps the dog, often the only adult in the room.

Oh. Right. How will that work out? Ask the King if he knows someone, he has contacts all over the place, and only the best.

A King always has his own personal Fool, and this Fool would be foolish to not want to fool around with this King as in: you’d be a fool not to.

I think I’m done here.

 

 

21 December 18: Queen of Wands & reversed Page of Cups

Kid gloves with the kid, whoever he or she is. I think I’m talking to a Mom today, or a teacher and a problem child. At least that’s one of a few little scenes I’m seeing possible here.

Little boo is an introvert – to say the very least. Poetic, artistic, sensitive and easily moved to tears, he may enjoy wearing his sister’s clothes. I call my little Pisces/Scorpio/Cancer Emo Kid. A young Page gazes into a gold cup set before him, fascinated with a weird little fish who has popped up out of his drink to tell him something. He sees dead people, has imaginary friends, and he’s either learning that it’s easier just be quiet around grownups and people in general or just not communicating at all. Reversed, this isn’t his or her best day – they could be rebellious ‘acting up’ or there could be more serious underlying emotional issues. He or she may be being bullied at school for their odd little ways, or just doesn’t ‘fit in’ with the rest of the family. If your kid is a water sign, we have a full winter moon in watery Cancer this weekend, so they may be a little ‘more’ than usual.

The Queen of Wands is the ‘ball of fire’ representing  Leo, Aries and Sagittarius. She is an encouraging and inspiring presence. She lights up the room, and has any situation well in hand. She likes to be in charge and we like her in charge. She was pretty much born to be in charge. The card of an actress, our Queen of Fire has all the pride of the Leo lion. You would never know there was any trouble at home, or that things weren’t altogether awesome in her world.

Which is sort of along the the lines of yesterday’s cards: this Queen may be internally processing emotions entirely new to her and going about her life as if everything is just fine, when emotionally, things are a little, or a lot, unstable right now. Pass on the open bar – relapse ahead. What is it that one of my muses, the great Dorothy Parker, said?

“I drank to drown my sorrows, but the damn things learned to swim”. Full Cancer Moon, You have been warned.

This could be something as basic as an age difference and/or communication style – someone’s bigger and brasher and more extroverted than the other. Of course, people work together whose differences compliment each other all the time, so that isn’t an issue. What is an issue is that our water sign, if not talking about a child or the Queen’s own inner emotional ‘awakening’ or ‘re-birth’ – is an adult with addictions or issues with their own sexuality that have interfered with or have affected their healthy, natural maturation process in some way.

In other words, somebody’s too old for this shit.

This compassionate but ‘tough love’ Queen is good to know.

If she is a teacher, she’s looking forward to a day off. If this is a Mom having a hard time with a special needs child, no one has to tell you how strong you are – they’re lucky to have you as a Mom, same if you’ve adopted.  If you or your kid is coming out, be proud. If you’re an intuitive, your mojo may be a little off.

If you don’t want a kid be careful, and if you, do be patient.

7 December 18: Ace of Coins & Knight of Cups

The proposal. Even I, deep down in my frozen cold black heart, know this is a romantic time of year, and we have a truly beautiful scene today. As a matter of fact, if you’re thinking about proposing you should just pop these 2 cards in an envelope and send it.

A large coin, huge, gold and shiny as the sun is handed to us from ‘out of the blue’ by the Fabulous Flying Skyhand of the Tarot who emerges from a bank of fluffy white clouds over the ocean. Our spectacular view is from a beautiful hillside garden. Roses and lilies bloom, and a lush, green trellis arches over a path that leads out down the mountain to the sea. This Ace I would call ‘the gift that keeps on giving’ that is, the ‘seeds’ that are the Aces have the potential to grow, and this ‘seed’ is all about money, home, family, and earthly possessions, plain and simple, including our most precious earthly possession, our own body. This Ace is of the suit of Earth and represents Virgo, Taurus and Capricorn. It actually looks like a lovely spot for a wedding. Perhaps he’s offering the home and garden itself – wow.

This is taking it out of the dream and to the street, as it were, IRL (that means ‘in real life’ I learned). The earthbound suit of coins are all about ‘IRL’, and it’s time to get real and manifest (I do not use that word often) this dream into physical reality. At least someone thinks so. He’s very special, this Knight. He’ll be crushed if he’s turned down. He’ll probably burst into tears on the spot.

The Knight of Cups is of the suit of Water, Pisces/Scorpio/Cancer. This is the dreamy, poetic Knight, riding over green valleys and blue hills carefully carrying his gold cup symbolizing what else? His love. When this water sign loves, he loves. He (or she) is the one who remembers the first time he saw you, the first thing you said to him, what you were wearing and what was playing on the radio. He’s a thweetheart. He loves love. He loves music. He loves art, he loves beauty. You’re his ‘dream come true’, and his dreams give him ‘wings’, as symbolized by the blue wings that crown his helmet. His armor is beautiful detailed and looks made of scales, like a fish. On his shoulder is an insignia of a blue wave – he is swept along, motivated and moved by his emotions. He can be a moody fish, but that’s to be expected from someone as sensitive as this lovestruck Knight (Morgan-Greer deck).

This is truly a beautiful combination. This Knight is offering him or herself, body and soul, in a rather cinematic, storybook setting. It will be a very special, memorable moment.

I hope the answer is yes, he went through a lot of trouble, gold ring and all.

It’s real.

 

 

 

 

 

5 December 18: The Hanged Man & Queen of Cups

Grok. This pair I’ve so seldom seen I cruised a few of my many online sources for some fresh info. Tarot Verbatim (excellent site) used the fictional word ‘grok’ to describe the relationship between this psychic pair, citing legendary Sci-Fi author and major early influence (he used to roller-skate on Hollywood Boulevard when he was kid, too) Ray Bradbury as the inventor of the word, but in fact it was another genius, author Robert Heinlein.

This relationship is so rare and indescribable that Heinlein had to adopt a word from the Martian language to describe it: Grok, meaning, the assumption of a singular reality.

I am you, you are me. I see through your eyes, hear with your ears. We don’t need to talk. We meet in dreams. She gets me, says the Hanged Man, who has been hanging there for a long time in surrender, waiting for a sign.

The psychic Queen of Cups is sending and receiving telepathic signals herself. She looks up from her gold cup as if she’s hearing her name being called or whispered from the large, pale shell held up to her ear. She hears many things the rest of us don’t, but then again, we don’t often ‘tune in’ to listen. She’s standing by the vast, blue, ocean – the water behind her not still, but not choppy either – just little waves. It’s all about waves: sound, light, everything comes in waves. She knows this, and probably surfs.

The Hanged Man has found his high, quiet place in which to meditate and ‘tune in’ himself, far above the fray and madness. What sacrifices is he or she willing to make for this relationship, or any relationship? He seems to be meditating on the question. What does this mean? Is he sacrificing a romantic relationship altogether for some ‘higher calling’? This relationship is the higher calling, and worth any sacrifice.

The Hanged Man is a creative or an artist of some kind, a musician, a writer, who by nature, is forever seeking divine inspiration.  Indeed he could be sacrificing this relationship for his art or work, his ‘higher calling’, but only temporarily.  Neptune and Pisces influence this Hanged Man and all things dreamy, watery and of the subconscious, which is why this man hangs upside down. He wants to hear the Source above the white noise of the world – and his Source seems to be this Queen.

If he didn’t believe before, he does now. Here’s the Wikipedia definition:

Grokmeans to understand so thoroughly that the observer becomes a part of the observed—to merge, blend, intermarry, lose identity in group experience. It means almost everything that we mean by religion, philosophy, and science and it means as little to us as color does to a blind man.”

Obviously this relationship is worth any ‘sacrifice’.

How often do you really grok with someone?

27 November 18: Temperance & The Tower

De-fusing a bomb. Literally. This is a weird and downright disturbing pair to see fall out together, but in the Tarot multiverse there are of course several interpretations of this powerful combination,  none of them  exactly comfortable.

Temperance is the giant, halo’d angel who patiently pours back and forth between two cups an unknown liquid, meticulously balancing and brewing seemingly incompatible ingredients harmoniously – making it all work. Back and forth, time, patience, and control. In olden tymes, one who did not ‘mix his wine’, that is, mix your no doubt extremely potent Biblical private blend with some water you were considered out of control – on the hard stuff. This looks like someone falling off the wagon – hard.

Temperance. Temper. Tempering. Controlling one’s temper, and emotions in general, is  advised by this calm, healing image.The angel has one foot on a grassy green bank and the other in a clear blue stream. Yellow flowers bloom at the angel’s feet in the green grass, it is a peaceful scene. Temperance, tempo, time. This is vigilance, maintaining balance, the order of things, of oneself. A full-time job. #14 of the Major Arcana, 4+1=5 and that’s one edgy, nervous, conflicted, unbalanced number. That angel can pour all day, but 5 will never be a 4 or a 6. It is through careful, continued effort that he keeps an equal amount of liquid in both cups.

The Tower. Well, it’s a scary looking card. Under a stormy, violent gray sky, lightning strikes a castle tower which bursts into flames. We see the silhouettes of two humans falling into the huge, deep blue white-capped waves that lap at the base of the tower. Mars is pissed off here, and we don’t even particularly roll out the welcome mat for Mars even on his best days. If he has any. I heard the landing yesterday, be careful up there. He doesn’t look that friendly to me. Makes me wanna plant trees. Bottle trees, they need very little water, grow a couple inches every damn day and are evergreen.

Oh hell I don’t even want to look at these cards anymore, I just hope someone is negotiating like mad for peace somewhere right now, or, someone is taking their sweet time as somebody or something else is about to ‘blow’. Endless back and forth.

Another sad meaning of this pair is being forced out of a home after having been there a long time – but we could turn on the news for that (if we are fortunate enough to have a home in which to comfortably listen to the news).

Here’s another one: the sexual tension between 2 people is gonna blow if they have to keep themselves under control any longer. There.  I’d much rather consider that interpretation.

The Tower is also considered a healing card –  in the way of finally ending something that was destined and had to end, and ‘healing’ can begin, a word overused and trivialized but that’s another rant – things will never be the same – or something you thought was essential to your life has crashed and burned, finally. Or your appendix has been ready to blow for sometime now, and did.

Lose your temper, clear the air, what the hell, you’ve tried everything.  For a long time now. Just don’t get physical. Or be an arsonist.

The Tower comes in at #16 of the Major Arcana, 6+1 = 7, another unstable number, and, strangely, the number of Faith.

We don’t need it when things are easy…