9 February 19: Ten of Cups & Three of Coins & Nine of Swords

The C Word. No, not that. I actually really like that word in context, like coming from a pissed-off (or pissed up) cab driver in London traffic . No, today it is Commitments or, Contracts.

In the past position is the idyllic, dreamy 10 of Cups, the maximum of the suit of emotion, Cups aka Hearts, and deeeeep water (Pisces/Cancer/Scorpio). It has the rather Victorian nickname of the ‘Happily ever After Card’ just so you know. Two arms reach in from opposite sides of the frame to raise a single gold cup high, catching a rainbow arching down from the blue sky. Why, it’s a wee pot o’gold! These are the luckiest people in the world, and they know it.

That’s important. Because here’s another C word for ya: complicated! Must you make it so?

The industrious 3 of Coins (Capricorn/Virgo/Taurus) is in the present position and we see a blueprint or contract being discussed or negotiated between 3 humans in a church that they all had a hand in building, from the architect’s plans to the artisan’s construction to the commissioner of the work, and it is a great work, all stone and stained glass, built to last. They agree the terms have been met on all sides, and everyone has had an equal hand in the magnificent accomplishment. These 3 humans on the 3 of Coins are all in vastly different ‘tax brackets’ as I like to say, but not when they each bring what they have to bring to the table, so to speak. The stained-glass guy or craftsman, or on the Russian deck, a musician; the Bishop or Cardinal, or on the Russian deck, simply the man with the ring of keys who obviously owns the place, and the architect. There is no 3rd human on the Russian 3, and there is only 1 human on the Morgan-Greer version of  3 of Coins, the blue-collar hands-on artisan who is left working after hours in the waning light of the stained-glass window.

This is the card of collaboration, and possibly obligation.

This could not have been built by any one human alone. Motivations may differ, but all 3 profit from the work. Coins are money. One thing is obvious: someone’s motivation for taking on these sometimes complicated contracts and commitments is doing it for home and family, or at least their concept of their future home and family. A lot of people have no idea what happiness is, but that’s the goal here, and none nobler. You are lucky to have known the happiness and love you have known.

Why then do we have the  ‘stay up all night and worry’ card in the future position, the dreaded insomniac of the Minor Arcana, the 9 of Swords (Gemini/Libra/Aquarius)?

This to me is just plain old worry about work aka when will the next job come? Or you may have been offered a contract with people you don’t really want to work with, and can see a whole lot more sleepless nights ahead of you should you commit to this. The one good thing we can say about this card though is that in the future position, we can  check ourselves, which is the point. This is a self-created, inflamed energy, all kinds of dark thoughts and potential painful scenarios, and you just can’t stop thinking about all the things that can go wrong. The Morgan-Greer card shows a pair of wrists tied up with rope, suggesting a fear of something ‘binding’. We long for and are inspired by a situation we had in the past with family or another deep relationship, even if it was only a ‘dream’ or vision in the past, it’s what’s motivating you now.

Is the architect building for his legacy? Is the Bishop building for his God? Is the craftsman working to feed his family? It’s not like they all hang out after hours.

 

Why am I doing this again?

 

25 January 19: Eight of Swords reversed & Three of Swords & Four of Coins reversed

Do you want to talk about it? You probably should, rather than carry all that around inside.

The most unwelcome 3 of Swords (Libra/Gemini/Aquarius) is a violent and painful card, no doubt about it. Three sharp swords stab through a bleeding heart in a stormy sky. The only redeeming thing that can be said about this unfortunate draw is that this is sometimes called ‘The Artists’ Card’, 3 being the powerful number of creation and the often tense and angst ridden process of. A bloody birth, so to speak. But no matter how you spin it, it’s never a welcome card. Emotions are raw and wounds are fresh, and we’re walking around in a great deal of psychic pain. This is depression with a capital D.

In the past where she belongs is the 8 of Swords reversed, or the card of self-limitation and ‘prison’. Mental jail. Those makeshift jail bars of sharp swords she’s surrounded herself with make it rather difficult to get to her, and that’s what this is about today. Reversed, those ‘bars’ are falling away, and it seems safe to approach. This is good. But having just come out of painful situation or state, we’re finding our ‘land legs’, sort of.

In the future position is the careful, guarded and rather miserly 4 of Coins (Virgo/Capricorn/Taurus). This card shows a human holding on to his stash of 4 gold coins for dear life. We’re not just talking about money here, but a mindset. Perhaps they’ve realized that living in a default state of worry and material insecurity was what was holding them back in the past. No risk, no gain. On every level.

I sometimes call this ‘holding your cards close to your chest’ in that this human does not easily open up to other people, but reversed, this may be about to change. It has to. Look at that gory red heart! Look at those black clouds hanging over it! Yet there is a soft, yellow glow emanating from the heart, like a sunrise. The heart heals itself, and has already begun.

What will this process look like? Who can you talk to? This card reversed can mean overspending or, as it’s called, ‘retail therapy’. Horrible term.

This can mean a period of grief that may – like the faint glow around the heart that I swear looks brighter the longer you stare at it (Morgan-Greer) – be coming to an end, and you’re finally able to talk about it.

Better yet, write about it,  paint about it, or sing about it.

 

 

29 September 18: Nine of Swords

High anxiety. 

You can say that again.

This card of the sometimes sharp and painful suit of Air (Gemini/Libra/Aquarius, we are now under a Libra sun) is the very picture of misery and is ruled by the angry red planet, Mars.  Planet of War, they call him.

Traditionally this card shows us a human sitting upright in bed in the middle of the night rudely awakened by nightmares, memories, regrets, and despair. Head haunted by scandal, cruelty, hatred, rumor, everything just short of murder and this person may know something about that, too. Guilt, depression, addictions.

I wasn’t surprised to draw this card this morning. The last 2 days of these hearings in the US, and I watched every minute live both days, were so surreal I felt I needed to turn to my special-occasion Salvador Dali deck.

Oh, Salvador.

On the card, there is a stone effigy in repose on top of a coffin that seems to be draped – I kid you not – with a red and white striped flag. Beside the coffin kneels a semi-transparent blue angel, and a quick, graceful dab of white paint creates a dove who seems to be flying away – it is a chaotic, exhausting and confusing image to look at.

 

..all that expensive education, all that privilege, and it wasn’t until yesterday you finally learned what the word ‘no’ means.

Sleep well, little Brett.